[productivity]

i did the first bit of learning ever (this summer) today. and it was torture. my brain doesn’t function anymore. its still on hibernate. do you ever get that feeling when you`re trying to do somethin and you KNOW you can do it but you just CAN’T at the moment and you feel like you’re stuck in pile of doodoo. and then you beat yourself up about it and then you`re like why am i beating myself up? i should kick someone else’s ass. and then you bang on the desk until you workup a hunger for peanut butter cereal puffs. that’s what i did today. and damn right i ate those puffs. i hate SATS like.. i hated mr. billingsley back then.

i just watch So You Think You Can Dance and i`m thoroughly disappointed that MUSA went home today. i thought that damn good lookin Dmitry lad was going home foh sho. i like to watch and wish that i could dance like all of them. sometimes it gives me goosebumps seeing how good they are and then makes me feel bad about how fat i am. )=

so! today i woke up, ate some vegetable lentil soup with a biscuit, moped around the house until my daily workout session in the basement, went upstairs, moped some more, went to my room and took a shower. my legs are sore and it feels good for some reason. maybe some of that chunk fat is leaving me. WOO BABY. then i watched tv eating peanut butter cereal puffs. went upstairs and spent 2 hours on that stupid SAT packet and almost killed myself. went downstairs to discover that my parents had made a JUICY baby back rib dinner. luckily i didn’t really watch what was goin around in the kitchen til later cus i would’ve drooled all over my disdainful self and gave in. i was angry i didnt have my tofu dinner ready so i had to go cook it myself while the family enjoyed their DUMB DINNER. took me like another half hour to get the shit ready.

now, i`m going to head upstairs to experiment with my hairs and watch 40 YR OLD VIRGIN againnnn!! WOOO. and maybe i`ll read some of that book i just got. my life is so exciting. everyone should want to live it. ALLL OF YOU.

not.

west palm come quiiickk. i can`t wait to see my relatives (:

NOTHING like spending some quality time w/ your favorite pple in the world, eating good food and shopping your heart out. =D