hectic

so school’s started….

senior year? — it`s definetly not all fun and games. it`s more of … lots of homework to kill you. that is, if you are trying to get ur IB Diploma. The rest of the kids pretty much have it easy.

The first week was a rude awakening.. i realized all i had to accomplish this year and now, overwhelming is an understatement. i can’t make up my mind about which 10 colleges i`m applying to, i`m only halfway done with my portfolio, i have to fill out a bunch of papers & write my resume, not only that, i probably will have to write more than a couple essays for colleges other than the application parts – SAT’s are coming up next month so i have to go to prep more, i have to catchup on my clubs – at the same time, finish all this homework and get A’s. i have piano, dance and IB TOK class after school during each week, sometimes one after another in one day. everything’s a dead weight on my shoulders. it’s unreal that all this is happening at the same time. i feel so lost i wish i were more prepared for this …

when overcome all that i have to, i`ve made a pact with myself that when i get into college, i will dye my hair with purple and turquoise highlights & get something pierced. i`m going to look like a freak, but like i care anymore. i don`t even bother to put on makeup or try to look good for school… not that i always do, but it just seems like i`m wearing the same thing everyday (but i`m not).

it’s only the 2nd week and i`m already half dead. i wonder what i`ll turn out like at the end of the year … ?